I Love
Karen Hallenbeck Sikorsky George BS,RN
For Steven
Sunday November 9, 2008
Trickle, pattern of lace light, peek through the depth of
Sky can we go up further, yes there, it is a single path you
Follow, into my heart; I moan and think "I want more" but
What I want, need, desire is you, the man you are is real
Bigger than life I care not for what "they" say for you took
Me away from a world constrained and burdened like ten
Tons of dynamite; I want out and you said "come with me"
Don't leave me if you do I'll find you, I'll be there...
I don't want to go, if I do it is because it hurts
To find my wall gone, to see you inside of me
Flashing like a rocket gone mad in outer space
This world we enter is ours, can we stay, not go
You want this, some of that, I need a cig, don't want to be here
Those friends I know broke all the trust, if my words don't come
They accuse me of being happy (what's with that) and if I speak
They tell me "you are in love" so if I am do they have to hate
Make me wiggle out of the seat, drive away, only to know we
Are stuck right here (for now) and one day without you there
Makes me feel lost, half gone, broken like a window pane and
Anger baby is not love, we had it bad, but just be who you are
Snow falls on barren ground, the night is cold
I could lay here under stars and sky with you inside
The fire burns in that place, let's go away from this
Sickness, enjoy what is left cause when I die you'll stay
How does it stop, no control, how does it go, out of control
Who are the faces outside the place we drove to yesterday
Neon colored light filled up the void, the water went beyond
The pain, the silence grew like velvet soft to surround what hurts
Changed the silhouette, recouped the thought, thank you Steven
You brought me home, shared this singleness that kept you sane
Quiet reverence, a date and time, you are right I'll never find it alone
Without you I'd cry (there) with you I respect the man you are, I love
You so strong and tough, I love
The way your attitude pisses them off
I love your heart beating beneath my face
The rhythm of your life interlaced in ME
You want to go with me, so just stay, I want to be with you,
We can drive away; north, west, south, east it's all the same
For the world out there alone is hate, the enemy not the friend
Potential life for you to live, if I die tonight I hope you see, that
I love what you mean to me, your hand in mine, your lips where
All is me, I could hold you and hear your life, even without a word
It's transparent, total, and now our days blend into night, the
Smell of roses, rocks, spillway, a breeze touches skin, now today
A church bell rings a brittle sound a gun
Goes off a thousand miles away (ghetto round)
A drive by shooting, a baby born in pain
This life we knew it's time to escape, it's ok
I never knew, or can again that one true love detours the end
I'll stay and not make you come, play if you want but you might
Win then what, and if it rains will you dry the tears from the
Broken heart of a child who never knew her mother's love for I
Can't kick it without those feelings, and there is this way
Home, barefoot we walk and lilacs bloom once like magnolia
I won't ask why for it is time to release the kite to the tallest sky
Floating upward, higher and higher, I love you, not good bye...
Thank you thank me
We know...
This love we have makes
US free....
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Sunday, November 02, 2008
"No We are Not Dead at all..."
Center
Karen Hallenbeck Sikorsky George
For "Steven"
November 2, 2008
The dark, quiet peace floated upward and stars stood
Erect, present and so alone up there, far away, I cannot
Touch you without feeling me, inside that place the
Wall erects, blind, elephant ride, what is this, why do I
Feel you forever familiar like the private parts of me
No one knows today (they are hidden for a reason)
You ask me why I look at you when we kiss and you
Know that is your being in me, reversed, shared, us
Passion is just energy in raw form
Take it deeper, slam it much harder and
If you want you might climb the mountain top
See my sky within, without, let's go to Midland and
Be what we are, we can follow the desert plain when
The hugest sun drops down low, yes down there, stop
Start again for night is cool, I shiver and you are warm
So hot that I boil and only want to know why you, why me
What did we do to be right here, don't let me run away or
Become the wall within for then I stop, and it is time to go
Into you, feel you, be real and not play I can't anyhow
Your pain is reincarnated in me, I know it well, I care
Children are pure (you are we are) and that love is
Boundless, robust, it is hard to beat there is
Absolutely no beginning or end, why is it you and I
Did not get to be children, prison door slams, bangs
Fuck it up, I wish I fought like you "then" but today I wish more
That I help you reduce rage to a small ball that you could throw
Hard, fast, and so far it will never return, more so that you sleep
With peace, feel safe no matter what you say, and take the
Aliens, bigots, criminals, malcontents and bust them out of this
Place we sit (beneath the desert sky) let's burn them at the stake
A eulogy (they are gone) and the weight (ton) is dropped and we
Are flying so fast a Lear jet is damn slow, sweeping chaos away
You feel like sunshine inside me, I melt on you and
Slippery, we burn and it feels like lava, erupting endlessly
Torn, confused, bruised but connected like an arm, a leg,
It is all interlaced and fragile turns to strong, we are heat
I like your heart it is totally part of the whole, do you begin to see
Good, the path HE is choosing for you to take, you don't need to
Suffer, question, join hands with the trailer trash failures that spin
Downward and are lined up on the firing squad for the final burial
It is time (good morning) to wake up, open your eyes for the first time
Take what is given (you need it) and know it is time to grow, even one
Small seed (planted) becomes a strong and able standard (a man) you are
Don't ask me why "I do" it just happened
Somewhere between San Angelo when you sensed
That sky was everything I turned and met your gaze
Far away, and a spark evolved to flame, you KNOW me
On a Sunday the church bells peal, a congregation prays in unison and the
Separate lives end, pale in comparison to the God flowing on those who
Deserve life, there is a key to unlock that door, use it with respect and
Know that even in this moment of totality, explosion, physical deployment,
I will not turn from you, but will look in your eyes, touch your face, feel
Your tongue touch mine (mine yours) and continue to go into that place
You let me go (with you) I have no FEAR, for you will be ALL you are
Some will never know this place, or go where we are, go at all, they are
Not going
To be
We are it and
Know, we just
Do, and it turns to heat
The sky remains, so stay
No one just you, I, I do care
Stay...
Karen Hallenbeck Sikorsky George
For "Steven"
November 2, 2008
The dark, quiet peace floated upward and stars stood
Erect, present and so alone up there, far away, I cannot
Touch you without feeling me, inside that place the
Wall erects, blind, elephant ride, what is this, why do I
Feel you forever familiar like the private parts of me
No one knows today (they are hidden for a reason)
You ask me why I look at you when we kiss and you
Know that is your being in me, reversed, shared, us
Passion is just energy in raw form
Take it deeper, slam it much harder and
If you want you might climb the mountain top
See my sky within, without, let's go to Midland and
Be what we are, we can follow the desert plain when
The hugest sun drops down low, yes down there, stop
Start again for night is cool, I shiver and you are warm
So hot that I boil and only want to know why you, why me
What did we do to be right here, don't let me run away or
Become the wall within for then I stop, and it is time to go
Into you, feel you, be real and not play I can't anyhow
Your pain is reincarnated in me, I know it well, I care
Children are pure (you are we are) and that love is
Boundless, robust, it is hard to beat there is
Absolutely no beginning or end, why is it you and I
Did not get to be children, prison door slams, bangs
Fuck it up, I wish I fought like you "then" but today I wish more
That I help you reduce rage to a small ball that you could throw
Hard, fast, and so far it will never return, more so that you sleep
With peace, feel safe no matter what you say, and take the
Aliens, bigots, criminals, malcontents and bust them out of this
Place we sit (beneath the desert sky) let's burn them at the stake
A eulogy (they are gone) and the weight (ton) is dropped and we
Are flying so fast a Lear jet is damn slow, sweeping chaos away
You feel like sunshine inside me, I melt on you and
Slippery, we burn and it feels like lava, erupting endlessly
Torn, confused, bruised but connected like an arm, a leg,
It is all interlaced and fragile turns to strong, we are heat
I like your heart it is totally part of the whole, do you begin to see
Good, the path HE is choosing for you to take, you don't need to
Suffer, question, join hands with the trailer trash failures that spin
Downward and are lined up on the firing squad for the final burial
It is time (good morning) to wake up, open your eyes for the first time
Take what is given (you need it) and know it is time to grow, even one
Small seed (planted) becomes a strong and able standard (a man) you are
Don't ask me why "I do" it just happened
Somewhere between San Angelo when you sensed
That sky was everything I turned and met your gaze
Far away, and a spark evolved to flame, you KNOW me
On a Sunday the church bells peal, a congregation prays in unison and the
Separate lives end, pale in comparison to the God flowing on those who
Deserve life, there is a key to unlock that door, use it with respect and
Know that even in this moment of totality, explosion, physical deployment,
I will not turn from you, but will look in your eyes, touch your face, feel
Your tongue touch mine (mine yours) and continue to go into that place
You let me go (with you) I have no FEAR, for you will be ALL you are
Some will never know this place, or go where we are, go at all, they are
Not going
To be
We are it and
Know, we just
Do, and it turns to heat
The sky remains, so stay
No one just you, I, I do care
Stay...
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