...Journal entry...

Hello to those who Read,

I have judiciously been walking the "duck pond" for 3 days running; yesterday I left for the task in the midst of a thunder, and or lightning storm with "true warnings" posted. Indeed not being a West Texan that does not affect me in the least. In short I have been hit by lightning while with the first "husband" back in Virginia--meaning lightning struck the front of our large Dutch Colonial (needed 5 bedrooms with 5 girls yes another day and blog...), and I in the back in my office went to yank the plug on my PC (IBM at the time) and was literally thrown across the room, and emerged with a blackened and painful hand. Not to mention it fried my hard drive but that was in the day of "good home owners insurance" that allowed full replacement value...

Stopped at Family Dollar for really I need to picket Albertsons for their overpriced "anything" it's a rotten shame that you can go to "Wally World" and pay half or LESS for groceries, however, there is a constant barrage or crowd of anyone at anytime, and in my recent months health has prohibited me barely driving without thinking I'd collapse. Those who know and love me know how bad it's been, those who are getting to know me, think "they know" and inference is not proven until tried by jury...This stated for someone who needs to know...

I am a professional nurse; injured in 1998 and getting a very rare pain disorder (RSD now called CRPS) and mine became systemic (very rare) and it is end-stage. The pain has been researched on the McGill scale at 82 times worse pain then end-stage cancer, and I will continue on pain management for life due to this, and 40 other autoimmune disorders also resulting from the injury. I then had a serious decline in the past 2 years; wasting K+ (potassium) which is the ion the most important one that carries electrical impulses to the heart. I have suffered some new diagnoses and they are ones I cannot dwell on today, or I will die just from the weight of the massive medical history I carry like an albatross upon my back. I am frail enough without the two ton weight added to me, and at five nine, only weigh now 110 pounds which is a 30 pound weight GAIN ,since I married my second and third husband, Luke... They found the pain literally was devouring my body weight and even consuming 5,000 kcals a day did NOT keep me above 84 pounds. They had to work on my pain medications and one old time drug was added to the mix (and man do I take a mix to live for my sympathetic nervous system is about shot now aka SNS), so that is part of me, who I am...

Run pain support lists and have been giving back that way since my injury. I have referred thousands for pain management around the world; yes world--including England, Canada, and the good old U.S.A.

There is more of me but I am as yet "used to" this type of blog in fact I hate it you cannot underline, you cannot indent, et al. Irritating to me at best.

Wishing all readers,

A good day, and some peace...

Karen G.

Addendum 5:50 p.m. CST

Did my 4th round today; there were men out there trimming the grass, and it was hellish hot with an odd south wind blowing (almost knocked me down as I circled facing downtown Midland (what a view yeh right), but just wanted to say how "cruel" people can be on the internet...I made comments to a friend of mine who has a blog, and logged on to read and saw some truly sick commentary made--about me--someone without the balls to write a name either...Sad but true...I had responded to a cute post about his lovely dogs titled "Nurse Wanted" and then today he apparently changed the title to "An Apple a Day" and I'm not an apple, am a nurse...He seems like such a nice man, so certainly he would not write such trash, however, it is eerie how those who cannot face themselves in the mirror will take a stab at someone who can, does, and will...

Peace Out!