Karen Hallenbeck-Sikorsky-George BSRN
October 1st, 2007
Face busted up, blood oozing from two hour cuts, the colors of war
Spread upon his skin like a leper, the paramedic turned away and said
"He has no insurance," you were shocked, surprised that now in this
Moment of his need he was bagged, wrapped and tied, and secondarily
Spit into that overfull dumpster where your dead neighbor Slagel found his
Last breath, the stench is monumental, and don't cry little girl (I am here)..
No saga of wars in history, bombs collapsing homes of
Innocent children, lives stolen, robbed, pillaged by men dressed
In clown suits (soldiers) so young they barely shave the stubble
Off their fresh faced skin, hand them a gun, let them run back
Where all comfort is created this is the place (a mother's arms) where
Grace, kindness, and the smell of homemade bread is all you need and
There comes a time when the exhaustion, sheer fatigue, burning muscles
Parched lips, dried eyes (too many tears), and fake expressions posed on
Christmas, Easter, his birthday (not yours) become cloying, nauseating, and
You puke out the scorn, you relieve yourself and ANA does not mean it is you
Fuck ANA and fuck death this life is to be lived
That little girl is crying, and her mother hears her don't you
See this world is all but fair, but equality is expressed by
God when He lets us know "never will we be pushed beyond"
What we can endure, not what we think, what HE knows and here we are
Playing hopscotch, sipping bitter old coffee, and I am thirsty for your words,
I scan your face carefully, not invading your privacy for I am hungry for you
My child, my flesh, my womb (I am angry too) because you did nothing
That part of OUR life ends as we touch, and your familiar scent assails me
You are grown but we can play in the park, you can stay P. (you come home)
With me, the world is open to you, the people that love me
Love you, they have watched me die a thousand deaths
Suffer medical miracles and never collapse or give in like that
Fake con artist when I bleed no one sees, I have dignity and
No fight is worthy of my heart, no disease can devour my love for you, and
If God is my strength, my hope, my experience then HE has brought me to
You, and you may rest, sleep, eat, go to school, stay at Mark's, drive in
Circles and still find me here; you can love with all you have to give and
I will tell you each day how proud I am of you, and guide you upwards
Never down, because your life is your own, you are never alone (I am here)...
The pasture is spring, the field frogs screech, and that one pine
Tree smells sweet, the sky is fading into evening and the smells
Of dinnertime, a day of rest, an evening blessed without bombs,
Interrogation ends at my door, it is yours too, look around (all for you)
Take my hand, we will sit comforted in one another, your words may ask
All questions, I will answer with honest and truth, sit right here, do not
Worry if you yawn, if one t
ime is not enough, (I am here), you can openThe door (it is left unlocked for you and your sisters), you can walk right
In (I am home), and if you bring a suitcase we will unpack it together
If you forgot what you need, never fear, it is here, never fear (I am here)...
Stare hard for there are events we cannot change, do not ask
To understand, be present always in this moment for it is your
Beginning, God's grace grants us this first day of life, like a baby
Sparrow bursting from the egg, feed hungrily and eat well my love
You are running fast (marathon), and the track becomes tiring, you think
I will not follow (I am here), you think I will not comfort you (dear heart I am)
He has tripped on acid in a mind bordering on psychotic and lost the war
The battle ends when we hold one another and those bluest eyes cry
Tears of joy, words of anger erupt, tears of faith, words become softer now
Time is just a ticking clock we have it all, and now we are proud, we ARE
Protected, the sun warms our skin, loved (by all of mankind) we
Are one of billions of hurt souls recuperated, strong, and enigmatic
Brilliant stars glowing, and the love is our solace, and our forever
Don't let go (hold my hand), one day soon, come to me, is peace
She was beaten, degraded, that woman who left she was alive and God
Strengthened, created, soothed, and placated the past until it left and she
Is me, today it is all love, intellect, spiritual oneness with our Creator and
You are the gentle flower poised ready to bloom, no stick of dynamite for
Your fervent, fresh soil, you will grow (I am here) and become all you were
Meant to be, this mother's promise is fact, come to me, you will see, I am
Here, so are you
I love you (all of you),
You are everything to me
I am here, I am here
Open the door, welcome
Home, I am ....
